At a very young age of six I lost my mom, my very precious mom. A mom who can make me stop crying before, a mom who has tireless hands to take care of me, and a mom who has endless hugs and kisses to her daughters. She died because of Breast Cancer. I hate it but maybe it is her time to go to the Father.
The rain symbolizes her to me, as if she was there whenever it’s raining. The songs” Ugoy ng duyan” and “Iingatan ka” make me cry everytime I hear them playing. But I think there is always a reason why God puts an early end in one’s life, and maybe this is a way for me to have a strong hold on Him. But after my mother died, my father married again while I was creating my own ways in life as if I don’t care if my father married again. I’m a pastor’s child, but it didn’t show before because I have a rebellious heart against my step mom. And because of that God tested me again, when my friends and I had a struggle, and because I was too weak spiritually and emotionally, I was tempted to commit suicide but because God has a lot of plans for me, He didn’t allow me to die.
I’m so thankful and when I read my Bible it says there in Proverbs 13:10” Pride only breeds quarrels, but wisdom is found in those who take advice.” And like a person had just woke up from deep sleep I realized that my life is full of pride where I can’t move freely even if I wanted. I have seen that God really loves me and even if I’m a rebel or sinner God still loves me. The song puts eloquently, ...
When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
And I will be still know you are God.
The song "still" always reminds me that a life without measure, a life with a covering of God, is a safe life. Another song gives me greater sense of security:Take me to that place Lord
In that secret place where
I can be with you
You can make me like you
Wrap me in your arms
Wrap me in your arms
Wrap me in your arms
The song ”Wrap me in your Arms” reminds me that the Lord is everywhere. 
